Out of small curiosity, I looked back at my writing on the best films of 2011 I posted at this blog, and I was rather amused by what I wrote in the beginning. I wrote, “I will be 29 after about two months, and I can feel that more than ever. Within a minute, I may find myself being 30.” Well, what do you know, I am really close to being 30 at present although my mind still feels immature and childish, and I am still not sure about whether I am really ready for the real world outside an ivory tower named KAIST.
2012 has been another eventful year for me. Outside the campus, there was the presidential election in South Korea not long after the US presidential election in November. While I was relieved that American people made a right choice in their presidential election, I was rather disappointed that the majority of South Korean people chose a conservative candidate who may not be competent for her new job which will start in the next year. But life goes on, and I have a little but precious hope for South Korea amid accumulating disillusionment with its society, and I wish good luck to our new president as well as South Korean citizens.
In case of my private life, I have been stuck in my graduate course again with no visible progress, and I struggled with depression at one point. I finally went to the stress clinic in my campus, and a kind psychiatrist helped me a lot with medications and advices. As I have suspected for years, it turned out that I have Asperger’s Syndrome, and that diagnosis explains a lot about the troubles with others around me for last 30 years. My parents and my adviser professor came to understand more about me, and, though there were some regret and disappoint, we made some compromises; I will finish the course, but I will get Master’s degree instead of PhD degree, and I will have to find the path really right for me once the defense is over.
I am still not sure about whether my knowledge on books and films can help me choose a suitable occupation, but I love movies, and I kept watching films even when I silently went through another emotional upheaval. On October 31th, I suddenly lost my will to attend the lab meeting just because I had nothing to say, and I just went into a movie theater near the campus. I watched three movies, and then wrote three reviews. Never imagining that my family and adviser professor were looking for me, I just looked at these three movies(“A Werewolf Boy”, “Savages”, and “Argo”), and I wrote what I saw, felt, and thought as soon as I got out of the screening room. After finishing the third review, I considered suicide for a while, but, as you see, I am here in front you right now in a better shape, and maybe I will attend 2013 Ebertfest.
Again, 2012 is a nice year for us with many good movies in spite of many other bad or bland movies, and I was delighted to write first reviews for the works directed by such remarkable filmmakers like Woody Allen, Wes Anderson, Andrea Arnold, Tim Burton, Nuri Bilge Ceylan, David Cronenberg, Michael Heneke, Alfred Hitchcock, Peter Jackson, Hirokazu Kore-eda, Guy Maddin, Steve McQueen, Sam Mendes, Christian Mungiu, Jeff Nichols, Michael Nichols, Alexander Payne, Sam Raimi, Raúl Ruiz, John Sayles, Martin Scorsese, Ridley Scott, Paolo Sorrentino, Béla Tarr, François Truffaut, Joachim Trier, Lars von Trier, Wim Wenders, Bong Joon-ho, and Kim Ki-duk.
Now it is time to have a little fun with gathering the movies I especially liked in this year, and I want to tell you about them. Because I have not watched yet “Life of Pi”(it will be released on New Year’s day here), “Cloud Atlas”, “Lincoln”, “Zero Dark Thirty”, “Flight”, “The Master”, “The Sessions”, “Django Unchained”, and “The Impossible”, so you will not find any of them in my list, but I will probably mention some of them in the next year – just like I will mention several excellent films of 2011 which were belatedly released at South Korean theaters in this year in this post.